My birth story.

We had both finally gotten over our disappointment of not being able to have a baby. I had always been told I wouldn't be able to. I always had wacky cycles so I thought nothing of it when I skipped 2 months. But then I started getting sleepy and nauseous. I made him buy me a test and I took it. I came out and told him he needed to go buy me another test. It was positive and that wasn't possible. I was already 2 months pregnant.

In July we had our first doctors visit and we heard the heartbeat. Our hearts melted. The next appointment we found out it was a girl! I felt her kick soon after that. Most amazing indescribable feeling ever. I had a very easy pregnancy healthwise. Emotion wise I was a mess! We were so broke. Jared had no clients and my job wasn't paying the bills alone. We almost starved countless times. Jared donated plasma constantly. It was a scary time. But with help of family and friends we made it through.

She was due December 24th. The Sunday before her due date I woke up at 2 am with my first painful contractions. I stayed up 3 hours in horrible pain really thinking I was in labor. I had the idea I wanted to labor mostly at home. The hospital was 5 minutes away and I was comfortable there. The contractions went away. I spent the next week having horrible contractions. I walked, I took flights of stairs, I prayed for this baby to cone out already! I was miserable.

Christmas day we were planning on going to visit family. I woke up with light contractions. We had breakfast, they got worse. I went for a walk to see if they were real. We decided to go in. No one was at the hospital. While trying to find where to check in we got trapped in a room with an automatic door and another door that was locked. I panicked. I was going to give birth in this room, I knew it. Miraculously someone came through the locked door and we escaped.

We were checked in and the nurses decided to keep me. I hate needles. Somehow I made it through the IV and the epidural...seriously I have no idea how. I talked with Jared and his brother and his wife and my grandma all through my labor. Thank you epidural. Jared and I even took a nap 2 hours before she arrived. Seriously get that epidural ladies! Finally the time came. I pushed and pushed and screamed at Jared to feed me ice chips until I could push no more. The doctor prepared to have to do an episiotomy. And then I threw up from eating so much ice. And everyone started freaking out saying keep going! So I dry heaved and ta-da! Baby Peyton arrived after 20 hours of (really not that bad at all) labor.

To blog.

I have blogged since I was 16. I think I started on opendiary.com. I've never been very good at it but I still love it. Just throw your thoughts out to the entire universe and see what happens. After opendiary I had a livejournal and then a MySpace. Thankfully none of these blogs exist anymore. My entire teenage life I broadcasted to the world. I'm not sure that was very smart. But here I am again baring my thoughts to a universe that I'm not really even sure is listening. I just love writing. There is something therapeutic about it.

And we will begin with where I am now. My life is perfect to me the way it is right now. If I could stop and replay a moment forever it would be this moment. The last five months have been the greatest of my life. My Daughter is five months old. She is perfect and wonderful and all of my heart. The pieces she hasn't stolen belong to her daddy. He is the greatest man alive and sorry girls hes all mine. He is a man of God which is the number one trait in a man in my eyes. He is funny, charismatic, handsome, and loving. He is my best friend and my best relationship by a long shot. He works hard at a job he hates so that I can stay home with Peyton. I love him and I can't wait to marry him. My family life was well non existant growing up. So this is my first real chance at a family. I love it. I finally found where I belong and for once my heart feels whole.